A very exciting , but brief update.
This is a very sensitive subject in our family, we’ve been very hush-hush about it this go around and always, it’s a very real and scary thing to us. But today I can finally say that my silence has been broken.
Immediately after Brooklyn’s baby blessing I started feeling tingling in my upper lip. I proceeded to bite the inside of my cheek every time I would eat. I couldn’t hear my husband talking to me in the car, out of nowhere my face was numb and I had lost the hearing in my left ear.
Having had Bells Palsy before, I was no stranger to the early stages and signs. But instead of my eye not being able to close, my ear was super sore, and the only noise I could hear from it was a dim ringing.
7 weeks & two different prescriptions later, I am happy to report progress. I now sleep on my normal side of bed, I had to switch with my good ear towards the cradle & door so I could hear Brooklyn when he woke up. But that meant I could hardly hear my husband in bed next to me. Which was super weird to say the least.
I am also relieved that I can now talk on my cell phone without it having to be on speaker. I remember telling my mom her phone was broken because I would dial on it, put it up to my ear and couldn’t hear, she put it on speaker and it was indeed ringing. I just wanted to cry and couldn’t believe this was happening to me.
I recently got a hearing test and my right side scored 100% and my left a 98%! So happy to report happy news and that my silence has been broken.
I asked a specialist why this happens to me. She said it’s like an autoimmune side effect and it stays dormant in my system and flares up when my body undergoes a lot of stress i.e. childbirth.
I’ve never felt more grateful for the face & hearing I now have, and the four children I’ve got.
& may it never return. -knock on wood-
*I decided to finally share this bc I often get emails about postpartum and how I need to stop making it look so easy bc it makes others feel bad, never my intention. I just want everyone to know everyone has different struggles some you can see some you can’t. Whether it be not being able to lose weight, not getting your milk in, not being able to hear just know it’s hard for everyone.
Having a child is the single most selfless thing you’ll ever do. And as mothers we are all in this together. God Bless each and every one of you, and those sweet babies too.