Bird Baby #4 is a ….. Baby BOY!!!!!! Another boy to love! “but I already have a baby brother” – Holland We may not have it all together…but together we have it ALL! my dress (shein) / shoes (valentino)
What if it’s not a girl? says the ultrasound tech after 25 mins of trying to get our baby to uncross his legs. Tears filled my eyes and my heart sunk. Don’t get me wrong I love my boys, but I was envisioning a little sister for Holland. And then the thought of maybe this means I need to go to five! Made the tears flow. I covered my eyes with my beanie and just held Holland.
And to think I was going to not find out the gender and have a surprise. After talking to numerous people who had surprises and a preference of what they wanted they did not recommend it. So we went ahead and found out.
I usually find out at 14 weeks, but I held out until 18 weeks. I caved when we booked our Disney trip. I envisioned a cute announcement picture on the beach along with a balloon release. But we found out the hard way that California has very strict balloon laws especially around the ocean. So we took the pics in 7 degree weather at my moms house instead, which was actually super fun.
With it being so cold the air molecules in the balloons would shrink dramatically when we would go outside. Holland would run inside- she was not having this photoshoot- I would take the balloons inside and they would puff back up. We would all run back outside and they would shrivel again. It was pretty comical. From chasing helium, sunlight, three kids, and trying to spell out baby all while freezing, is a memory I’ll never forget.
When we drove home from the ultrasound my heart and mind turned to the little boy inside my stomach. He could probably hear us rooting for a girl, as he was trying to hold his legs tight with all his might as I did jumping jacks, belly rolls, you name it to try to see who was coming to our family.
I felt HORRIBLE! And wanted him to know how much we loved him. I called my husband immediately and told him what our babies name was. It was the name Briton was going to be, August. Dallin said are you sure? I said yes, and if we have him and he doesn’t look and feel like an August we can change it, but I want to give him a name and start getting the kids (mostly Holland) ready not just for a brother, but getting the kids ready for another person coming into our home.
We told the children at Disneyland what their little brothers name is and immediately Holland started to call my tummy “Gus Gus” like from Cinderella.
We’ve had only one other melt down, where Holland locked me out of the bathroom took scissors to her hair and told me she too wanted to be a boy. Since Holland obviously has a fascination with scissors at the moment we made a deal that if there is no more hair cutting then she can cut baby Gus-Gus’s umbilical cord. The family joke is that better be the only thing she cuts when she is down there 🙂
Gender, no gender, boy or girl whether I found out or not I am so thankful another person is coming into our home and lives! Little August aka Gus-Gus I’m so- o happy I get to be your mom!