Started off Sundance at the Montage. It was so beautiful!
January you lagging HARD! But it’s ok you’re almost over!!! And yes, we finally did take down the Christmas tree 🙂
Tonight I’m sharing my Nashville outfits. I swear by every piece.
So grateful I went to the mall last night and not today because this afternoon at Fashion Place Mall there was a shooting. Looks like I am officially an online shopper.
Today I did things I no longer do as a mother, but something I used to always do as a young mother. I packed up the kids during a snow storm and headed to the mall. But before I did that, I loaded up my stroller (lately I usually only bust that out on vacations or runs). As I unloaded my children from the van into their stroller and walked in the mall. I had flashbacks of the old me. The younger, eager mother I once was. I had just had Briton when I got this little seat attachment. I was excited, I had three kids, all under the age of three. And I knew I was going to get pregnant again soon, or at least I had hoped I would.
Fast-forward 4 years, my oldest is now 7! I have had my 4th child who is approaching his second birthday this spring. I am not as eager for the future because the future means babies growing up instead of meeting new ones.
I sat in my car after our mall experience, listened to their lullabies and looked at my rearview mirror at all of their eyelashes fluttering off to sleep. I cried! And I don’t cry. At least anymore.
Lately, I have put guards up, I’ve felt defensive, confused, and maybe like I need to move on from Birdalamode.com and put this chapter to bed. But tonight I felt close to the young mother I used to be just a few years prior and I remembered what Birdalamode.com stood for, stands for and why I love it with all my heart.
You see Birdalamode.com documented the best years of my life. I met my children on here. I discovered who I was , who my friends are , and the importance of family. I have made income, friends, and mistakes. But its life. To me Birdalamode.com is a living thing. There is a person, a family, a story, history behind this platform. And I want it part of my life forever in one way or another.
Recently I have said goodbye to a HUGE chapter in my life, breastfeeding and my hormones have made me super sensitive, in a positive way. I went through an excited moment and now I just feel overly grateful for what I have and created as I watch them sleep. Whether I bear more children or if that is now a phase of life behind me I will always hold on to the young mother I was and I will always cherish those babies and the young girl who shaped me into the person I am today.
Hudson has chosen to be baptised as a member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. This year we will be preparing and getting ready for his big day which we just found out today is September 7th 2019!
I can’t believe my baby is so grown up and making big decisions in his life already.
Way to go Hudson! May I be more like you when I grow up!
Love forever Mom