Today I am getting ready for the day I meet my little boy.
I have a little more anxiety going into this delivery as I am 56 mins on the dot away from my hospital.
* I timed this on Wednesday. From my home to the 5th floor of the hospital check in, it took me exactly 56 mins.
On Wednesday I had a “false alarm” as I thought my water broke. I had just walked Hudson into preschool headed back to my car. I felt a sharp pain in my groin sat down and “water” went rushing down both sides of my legs all the way to my knees.
I was sure this was my bag of waters.
I rushed home to get my unpacked things threw everything in my front seat, babies clothes, hair tools, robes, I was a hot mess.
And then I headed to the hospital. I called my little brother to pick up Hudson from school and then to come and get my other two children at the hospital.
My husband was flying in from New York.
I purposely showed up still wearing my wet jeans.
I was tested and found out it was not my bag of waters.
I was told I probably just peed my pants.
And that the sharp pain I felt could have been a kick/head butt from baby against my bladder which caused me to pee my pants.
I was so embarrassed, relieved, and left with a lot of anxiety as I am a good amount dilated and now 80% effaced. My cervix is still posterior which is great, anterior is when you deliver.
I left with a feeling that I might not be delivering my baby in a hospital. I don’t know if I am going to a. make it -or- b. if when I really do go into labor will I just think it’s a false alarm and ignore it, like oh I peed my pants again, or when my contractions start coming 3-4 mins apart will I be like oh another UTI ? Will I wait until it gets so bad and I don’t have time to make it to the hospital, get my epidural and I end up having my baby in the car?!?
I am not trying to sound dramatic, this is just how I feel. I have never been so nervous. I have been researching how to deliver a baby in the car. And have packed a shoe lace (to tie off umbilical cord), syringe (to suck out mouth), scissors (to cut umbilical cord) , towels (obviously), extra blankets (to keep baby warm).
You would think I would be more calm as this is my fourth delivery. But no it only makes me more nervous as every baby seems to come faster and faster. And now I live further away. I am really focused on staying close, laying low and listening to my body at this time.
My goal is to execute my birth plan; deliver with my Dr., hospital, epidural, get taken care of by a staff of nurses and veg out for a couple of days. That’s it.
Have a great weekend everyone and a great spring break!