I wish I had something great to announce some reason why I left some project I have been working on but the only thing I have been working on is me!
I have suffered from lots of postpartum trauma, ptsd, 2020, and would end up crying when I would attempt to log into my website. It’s been a wild year for everyone. So lets skip the anxiety enducing details. What might seem like a data dump to the outside, its actually been extremely theraputic in the inside. To do something that used to bring me so much joy.
I can say for the first time in a long time I logged into my site, didn’t check traffic, didn’t read the comments (most/all truly are so vile!) that were left behind. I just did what I love not for anyone else but me.
I am starting to feel truly Happy 🙂 not bc of external factors but just because…….
All my marriage I’ve suggested going parasailing, and we finally did it! And it was surreal! The control freak mom in me almost had a panic attack watching my three children go up in the sky, I kept asking how will I know if they need something? How will they communicate it to me?! But the captain just smiled and so did the children even though I could hardly see or hear them. Sometimes it’s hard to watch our kids grow and go but I’ve always had confidence and faith and sometimes that’s all it takes.
If google is still a thing by the time all my kids can read, what do you want them to see/read/remember if they look back on their childhood? Answer: (see pics above)
